Life itself caught up with her and she could no longer run from the pain of her past and the secrets that threatened to destroy her future.  In the darkest hour of her life, Natalie Simone Silverstone cried out… How did I get here?  What is happening to me?  And where in this hell is God?

Writing as Lady Silverstone, Marion Napoleon presents the first book in a captivating real-life series based upon her personal life experiences.  Darkest Hour tells how a young girl, tattered by poverty and shattered by life itself, finally faces her demons and emerges into womanhood with confidence, strength and wisdom.

To know God is to walk his walk (the cross), talk his talk (the word) and read his word (the bible) daily.  We have to go through a cleansing process daily and sometimes hourly.  Trust me, we are far from perfect in the eyes of GOD.

To live in this world does not mean to block it out, and act like worldly issues do not tempt or cause us to stray from the word and presence of God.

It is important for the women of the world to know that there is HOPE, DELIVERANCE and PEACE in the Word of God.  As Christian women, we have to humble ourselves enough to see past the current afflictions, love them and lead them into the path of righteousness.

Who am I to judge?   I too was a sinner, and I too am still being molded into the woman that God wants me to be.

We love you, and I pray that this ministry can offer peace and understanding through “THE WORD OF GOD”

I can comfort their heart and guide them home.

When my husband is tired and needs tender loving care,

In his arms I fall to let him know that I’m there.

When my kids are feeling sad and tears fall from their eyes,

A kiss I will always grant for the rest of their lives.

When a lost soul is wondering like a blind man in the night,

I can hold their hand and guide them to the light.

When my work day is over and everyone is okay,

I sat in my quiet corner not sure what to say.

Tired and drained as their pain re-enters my mind,

I can’t shake their visions; I can’t leave my work behind.

As I close my eyes and cry myself to sleep,

I feel arms around me and someone rubbing my feet.

A soft voice whispered and called me by name.

He spoke the most beautiful words of comfort that it removed my pain.

As my body let go and my mind did the same,

I knew at that very moment that I would never be the same.

For those of you motivators, teacher, preachers, like me,

Allow God’s Holy Spirit to continue comfort thee.

Blessings………..

By

Lady Silverstone

Our leader’s pain and anguish has come to the forefront.

Is PAIN your medicine?

Is PAIN your game?

Is PAIN your shame?

The dictionary describes pain in these two simple sentences:

1. The acutely unpleasant physical discomfort experienced by somebody who is violently struck, injured, or ill in certain ways

2.  Severe emotional or mental distress

Why is it that some can be struck across the face and still reach with loving arms to their abuser?

Why is it that some can be slaughtered with the most violent words of hate, and still say I love you and make excuses?

Why is it that some can be ignored day after day and still wanting the company of their intimidator?

Why is it that some would rather have unpleasant relationships than none at all?

Why is it that some can stand so tall, and some would rather die than see their abuser fall?

I understand these questions, I once asked them all.

If hurt wasn’t part of the equation, then I had no one to call.

I spent my days singing, old school sad songs, I use to think if it didn’t hurt….then something must be wrong.

Is pain mind over matter?

P….. Pretending that it doesn’t hurt

A…. Acting like everything is okay

I…… Isolating you until the hurt goes away or SIMPLY

N…. Never knowing when to walk away

Why do I ask such questions?

Their have been times in my life that the physical pain outweighed the mental pain, and the mental pain outweighed the emotional pain.  In the end, it all felt the same….NORMAL.

After years of pretending, hiding and isolating myself to shed the tears, one day my prayers rang loud and louder in my ears.

I prayed that God would teach me how to stop pretending, and allow my acting not to be misleading.

I prayed that He would remove me from isolation and shame; I prayed that He would teach me how to walk away from the game.

If you are reading this message, and you have seen such PAIN, I’ve prayed and asked God to grant you the same.

When the burden starts to lift and peace comes about, encourage another woman and show her the way out.

Pain is a part of life that strengthens a woman’s heart; Pain is the substance that makes us who we are.

For every hurting soul that is lost and alone, remember this simple thing to help you move on:

P…..stands for your Purpose (We all have one you know)

A….is the Angel (Who is with you where ever you go)

I…..is our Instinct (We constantly look for this)

N…is our nurturing nature (It’s what God made us for)

Even Job’s Friends Shared His Anguish

Job 2:13

Then they sat on the ground with him for seven days and nights.  And no one said a word, for they saw that his suffering was too great for words.

Now…in this day where our leader’s pain is so obvious – should we remain silent or speak our peace?

You tell me…..

Written by:

Marion Napoleon

Aka: Lady Silverstone

A friendship should teach us what life and love is all about.

A friend will not put you on a pedestal, because we all have faults.

A friend offers a listen ear when you are afraid or have doubts.

A friend’s arms are safe to strengthen, warm and care.

A friend has no other motives, no lustful thoughts, don’t dare!

For those on the stay list, thank you for allowing me to be me.

For those on the go list, it was never meant to be.

Stay                                                                                        Go

Allows me cry                                                                       The reason I cry

Encourages                                                                           Tears down

Makes me laugh                                                  Hates the way I laugh

Speaks truth no matter what                                             Hides the truth at all cost

Tolerates my husband because of me                            Knows my husband intimately

Allows me time to breathe                                 Smothers me with their presence

Allows me to vent                                                                Vents about me

Teaches me how to swim                                   Watch me drown

Talks me up                                                                          Talk me down

[If you have to determine which list you are on, perhaps my friend you had better move on.]

ARE WE TRULY SEEKING THE OTHER PERSON’S HIGHEST GOOD?  KNOW WHAT LIST YOU ARE ON WITH YOUR FRIENDSHIPS.

Blessings,

Lady Silverstone

Perhaps Psalm 35 can explain it best……

PSALM 35

1  Plead my cause, O LORD, with them that strive with me: fight against them that fight against me.

2 Take hold of shield and buckler, and stand up for mine help.

3 Draw out also the spear, and stop the way against them that persecute me: say unto my soul, I am thy salvation.

4 Let them be confounded and put to shame that seek after my soul: let them be turned back and brought to confusion that devise my hurt.

5 Let them be as chaff before the wind: and let the angel of the LORD chase them.

6 Let their way be dark and slippery: and let the angel of the LORD persecute them.

7 For without cause have they hid for me their net in a pit, which without cause they have digged for my soul.

8 Let destruction come upon him at unawares; and let his net that he hath hid catch himself: into that very destruction let him fall.

9 And my soul shall be joyful in the LORD: it shall rejoice in his salvation.

10 All my bones shall say, LORD, who is like unto thee, which deliverest the poor from him that is too strong for him, yea, the poor and the needy from him that spoileth him?

11 False witnesses did rise up; they laid to my charge things that I knew not.

12 They rewarded me evil for good to the spoiling of my soul.

13 But as for me, when they were sick, my clothing was sackcloth: I humbled my soul with fasting; and my prayer returned into mine own bosom.

14 I behaved myself as though he had been my friend or brother: I bowed down heavily, as one that mourneth for his mother.

15 But in mine adversity they rejoiced, and gathered themselves together: yea, the abjects gathered themselves together against me, and I knew it not; they did tear me, and ceased not:

16 With hypocritical mockers in feasts, they gnashed upon me with their teeth.

17 Lord, how long wilt thou look on? rescue my soul from their destructions, my darling from the lions.

18 I will give thee thanks in the great congregation: I will praise thee among much people.

19 Let not them that are mine enemies wrongfully rejoice over me: neither let them wink with the eye that hate me without a cause.

20 For they speak not peace: but they devise deceitful matters against them that are quiet in the land.

21 Yea, they opened their mouth wide against me, and said, Aha, aha, our eye hath seen it.

22 This thou hast seen, O LORD: keep not silence: O Lord, be not far from me.

23 Stir up thyself, and awake to my judgment, even unto my cause, my God and my Lord.

24 Judge me, O LORD my God, according to thy righteousness; and let them not rejoice over me.

25 Let them not say in their hearts, Ah, so would we have it: let them not say, We have swallowed him up.

26 Let them be ashamed and brought to confusion together that rejoice at mine hurt: let them be clothed with shame and dishonour that magnify themselves against me.

27 Let them shout for joy, and be glad, that favour my righteous cause: yea, let them say continually, Let the LORD be magnified, which hath pleasure in the prosperity of his servant.

28 And my tongue shall speak of thy righteousness and of thy praise all the day long.